After The Flood

by Jesse Dangerously | Jacob Earl

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1.
I'm not sure what made you leave For years you disappeared You returned you weren't the same You had aged more than your years What we accomplished today I like the new you this way I like the new you this way I like the new you this way I like the new you this way Once upon a time Once upon a time Pushing against an unseen force I'm not sure why I fight no more It's like my muscles learned the lesson And just repeat until I'm lessened The past repeats a past regression An exercise in self-reflection Exorcise past repression Empty of the last impression I Have to keep a little remorse I have to resist and stay the course On the outside it's a cool sheen You don't see the layers in-between Full of tarnish and gut rot The result of bottling up the lot It builds a special kind of pain The kind that never goes away Fortunately it keeps the balance It represents every challenge I haven't tried to let it go Maybe I don't want to know What it's like to just give in Resisting is the way to win I have to resist the constant flow Against the grain is how I grow Pushing against the unseen force It's not your fight no more Pushing against the unseen force I'm not sure why I fight no more It's like my muscles learned the lesson And just repeat until I'm lessened
2.
I'm a survivor, I'm a MacGyver But I'm not the only one Just the only one who matters Brain splatters, grey matter If you pick up that gun No one else knows what I accomplished I kept it all to myself Your confidence is your weakness Your confidants betray your trust You called me prodigy Humour me; do you see? Do you know what that means? I got a race of superhumans Yeah I made 'em; named after me Do you know what that means? You called me special, swell I've got a great big special gift Rid the earth of all the minds Quietly left adrift I leave this legacy, mega-city Of chess pieces and blue genes Your cowboy politics is all it took You never impressed upon me You called me prodigy Humour me; do you see? Do you know what that means? I got a race of superhumans Yeah I made 'em; named after me Do you know what that means? They will rule They'll sing their healing Long after we are gone Inherit the beauty that we tarnished For far too long
3.
You never go quiet into the night, brother we always fight, brother She seemed an object to you Something tragic you had to save Objectification always was your stronger suit The Emperor's new close shave You dressed her down and felt down righteous You are a fucking clown Playing God in your clan man cave You don't need me hanging around, You're so brave You never go quiet into the night, brother Mm hm? We always fight, brother And why is that? You say I never go quiet while you're standing here hollering You got a lot of opinions and I'm supposed to be tolerant How can I take serious this hogwash you told me like I don't know what love is, And I want you to show me? (YES) Foreign concept, it comes off like boring nonsense and I can't help you piss me off like you're incontinent I thought we had a common sense of what our quandary is Are you Barrabas or Pontius? Problems? I got a laundry list! You never go quiet into the night, brother Mm hm? We always fight, brother Yeah, and why's that? You never go quiet into the night, brother Mm hm? We always fight, brother And why's that? I am superficially like you Yes I am also full of rage I don't need to dig for clues Secrets you take to your grave, How badly you behave The difference may seem like splitting hairs But you're so loud and proud and crass You preach the word, your worldly cares There's no pulpit left, alas, There's no weight or Mass You never go quiet into the night, brother Mm hm? We always fight, brother And why's that? I am fundamentally like you, Yes I also feel betrayed Don't look at me like I'm Mister Nah, that's my father's name And if it's all the same I'd rather know the ledge than shoulder blame We're soldiers, Zeb, we're both the same Just look at all we overcame! The overhead is heavy looming over us And when there was a Gold rush, I could have spoken up But I was so humane So, what? You got it off your chest? Your unstable refrain? Refrain from re-framing these games, Like we were Abel and Cain, C'mon We were opposite ends of the stage I took your orders 'cause I wanted to be saved Objectification always was your stronger suit The Emperor's new close shave She seemed an object to you A lifeless prop to attach me to Why can't I push through And bring myself to hate you? You never go quiet into the night, brother We always fight, brother You never go quiet into the night, brother we always fight, brother You never go quiet into the night, brother we always fight, brother You never go quiet into the night, brother we always fight, brother You never go quiet into the night, brother we always fight, brother You never go quiet into the night, brother we always fight, brother You never go quiet into the night, brother we will always fight, brother You never go quiet into the night, brother we always fight, brother
4.
I will feel like life is successful And I no longer fear death When the reasons I worked so hard to win Have given way to such success I'm accounting on you to keep it quiet Though I see it in your eyes The cold questions about why I told you one too many lies I'm bottom rung hung I'm tolerant But I still think wicked thoughts I wish I didn't I'm Cary Grant on a bad day You're me when I glance in the mirror the wrong way I'm a fruit, I'm the Adam's apple You were never cute You somehow never had to You were duty-bound To honour our Father That wasn't going to suit you Why would you bother? I'm the brand new son I'm tolerated But I still do wicked acts I wish I didn't I wish I wasn't hated I will always forgive you my brother 'Cause maybe I led you astray Even though the wars are won We have many debts still to pay I'm counting on you to protect What little we have left Our cold prospects Bereft I'm bottomed out And little by little sinking The Flood washed us out What were we thinking? Ok, admission: I messed up Cults and capers I knew the stalemate ended Sooner than later Consequences on my shoulders So many choices I tuned them all out For my inner voices Sick belief made me sick I tainted you with belief The sickness spread all too quick The flood was the final relief
5.
Eve I love you, I have loved you forever Eve I love you, you don't even know Eve I love you, I have loved you forever Eve I love you, you don't even know Some would say you are a mother to me A sounding board and a shoulder to cry on Some would say you are my sister lovely Shall I protect you from peril and pain? I never had a mother or sister I didn't know there was something missing I still don't want a definition for you Make you role-play, I have nothing to gain Eve I love you, I have loved you forever Eve I love you, you don't even know All these riches that my father left me Eve, I am still so hungry and poor Eve I love you, I have loved you forever Eve I love you, you don't even know Eve I love you, I have loved you forever Eve I love you, you don't even know All these filthy believers surround me I have no faith to give anymore Eve I love you, I have loved you forever Eve I love you, you don't even know Eve I love you, I have loved you forever Eve I love you, you don't even know Bring me back to you, I want to love again give me a chance to make things new I helped destroy the old world, old fears I'd like to try to create something too Eve I love you, I have loved you forever Eve I love you, you don't even know Eve I love you, I have loved you forever Eve I love you, you don't even know Eve I love you, I have loved you forever Eve I love you, you don't even know Eve I love you, I have loved you forever Eve I love you, you don't even know
6.
(SAVE THE BEES) Party people in the place to be, Please turn your face to me, we gotta (SAVE THE BEES) They're as precious as they can be And they've waited patiently, we gotta (SAVE THE BEES) If you connect point A to B, They could be our saviours, please we gotta (SAVE THE BEES) There's no time for complacency, We need an awakening, we gotta (SAVE THE BEES) Put em on a high up pedestal, Super-scientifical, physical, medical Honey is edible, liniments are spreadable, It'd be pitiful if we let em go You see a bee or two or three then be Useful please and serve 'em Do things to ease their burdens, It's like that Anna - Please Hammer don't hurt 'em! The bees hold the keys To every antidote serum! The haters stay buzzin', And I don't hear 'em! Cousin. Say I'm a fanatic? I don't care! I'm Lovin'. Every little bug in my apiary If this wasn't science, they'd be fairies! If they look tired, they should be carried! Nurse em back to health like a baby! It's VERY IMPORTANT. I can see you ignoring me But it's more than a plea, You make bees a priority! (SAVE THE BEES) Party people in the place to be, Please turn your face to me, we gotta (SAVE THE BEES) They're as precious as they can be And they've waited patiently, we gotta (SAVE THE BEES) If you connect point A to B, They could be our saviours, Please we gotta (SAVE THE BEES) There's no time for complacency, We need an awakening, we gotta (SAVE THE BEES) Whether attackin' fellows or actin' mellow Give a happy hello to the BLACK AND YELLOW BLACK AND YELLOW Pattern of stripes that's the only thing that matters in life You got a allergy? Yo that isn't right! It's impolite. Why you wanna kill the hive? This illness is jive, look - you're still alive For now... and if you die, it's the facts of life I'm willing to sacrifice you to (SAVE THE BEES) Party people in the place to be, Please turn your face to me, we gotta (SAVE THE BEES) They're as precious as they can be And they've waited patiently, we gotta (SAVE THE BEES) If you connect point A to B, They could be our saviours, Please we gotta (SAVE THE BEES) There's no time for complacency, We need an awakening, we gotta (SAVE THE BEES)
7.
(It starts to rain) Walk the hollow halls Of a deserted power plant don't ask me to save you; I can't I'm a well-known advocate For all life is sacrosanct This is a place of refuge Behind a broken facade We give you choice to fight back They took away all you had I built this all from dirt my dear An arid, dying past We're peace abiding citizens Entrenched iconoclasts Every day has meaning now We celebrate the saints We do this for the greater good We exercise restraint You will join our happy family I never said I was a saint You never said you were happy We're still surviving somehow We can beat the odds The trick is not turning on Empathy will do you in The sadness goes on But we bring new hope and life I present you with the choice
8.
Yes! There's a darkness There's a soul There's a hunger There's a hole The secrets, they can't fill it The red sauce, I always spill it There's a darkness There's a mess The message is lost in the chest I'm an animal I'm a beast I'm the throbbing I'm the mouth and teeth There's a darkness There's a dread From the pinnacle To the pits of the dead I'm the king I'm across the air the blood on my hands has always been there There's a darkness There's a void I'm suffocating But I'm still humanoid Hollowed out my body Stripped out my brain Replaced it with fire and a hurricane I'm in pain There's a darkness There's a hole There's a monster eating my soul There's a benefit To the pain To divert your attention and entertain When I serve you The unknown meat I'm not thinking about what's good to eat 'Cause there's a darkness Bleak and gone I remember nothing, I'm so alone That's got nothing to do with this (Liar) I cannot die, at least NOT on purpose As seen on two previous circuits My only friend speaks to me When the berserk hits It's not like daddy was a rolling stone That stone was dropped And daddy rolled to the floor Now daddy ain't gonna hurt me no more Nobody ever gonna hurt me no more Thirst for breakfast, lust for dinner Blood for canteens, With some sport in the middle Little piggy think a zig zag'll matter When this cat's a tad faster Than your best panicked reactions But that's got nothing to do with this (Liar) And it's nothing a knife through you won't fix I'm a loophole slipped over group home kids Left hanging in the crowd of a tombstone skit (And that's it) Yes! It's right there in the name We were hardened by the game Everything is pain It all comes from the ball The pain is in the balls No, Fuck, I'm just joking Watch out now we're your new houseguests We're of the only real humans left, bacon flesh Yes! Fresh from God's last Gardener's best Gouged out my best friend's eye, the left Corps wives used to pay me for sex Now all I've got is scars and your snapped neck We're three-time vets, leave you a wreck Bodies ground up fed to your pets So hold onto all your Oreos We like eating your kidneys best The system made me (The system made me) What I am (What I am) I'm not responsible I'm just a program Delivering orders, wretchedness I can't miss it, I don't know how to miss A trained killer A raging disease There's a darkness cutting into me Yes There's a darkness There's a soul There's a hunger There's a hole I'm in pain I'm in pain Darkness
9.
Yes we're on every corner Tempting your senses, honour Off in your corporate pornos Walled in with horns and fences You want your chickie-nobs Grown in a petrie dish You prim and proper slob With your filet of fish Why you so high and mighty? Ain't never killed a thing Your moral highly rightly Ain't feeding all our needs "I am my own parasite I don't need a host to live We feed off of each other We can share our endorphins" I'm cooking cold comfort I'm serving special sauce I'm giving you the gun for Which to show you're boss I'm serving SecretBurgers Upon which you salivate I'm hiring Painballers My meat is Grade “A” You'll love our value menu You'll line up just to taste You'll go raving mad When you finally stuff your face Wow Everything's great here We're making a fortune Well I'm not, They must have misplaced my portion The boss is a meat-head I think he wants me dead He moves like an inch And I flinch and I see red It's like a premonition, I guess I never listen Is this the type of treatment That he used to get in prison? I'm in the best position To see the worst offences I seen them beat a person senseless Then I served a sandwich All day immersed in stenches And certain chemicals I'm a walking urgent message From the surgeon general Animal or mineral, Drive thru microphone What part is the food And what's the Styrofoam And what's my life alone, Hot death is my cologne As long as I've got breath My job kept the prices low It's nonsense and if you want To truly be nauseous Take a closer look At our cruelty-free process Technically, nauseous means Sickening, not sickened but Take your pick You fucking disgust me
10.
Is this our lives? Is this a competition? I thought you and I were a solid team And we were surely On the side of good What happened to Adam? What happened to Even? As it happens Yes the walls have fallen And before you ask Yes, the levees broke We are nothing But shortwave static We're all starving Thanks for asking This is me now It's also you now Who's chronicling the madness now? And for whom? This foundation This foreign state It's all no more and I can't say I blame him I don't empathize With what he did But I can't fault the outcome At the end of the day I agree With the execution But disagree With the execution There are better ways To gut a pig And cleaner means To the final solution Is this our lives? Is this a competition? I thought you and I were a solid team
11.
I was raised with the gun Immaculate estates I never had to wait The hunt was never fun A functional upbringing Rules to enforce Obey and stay the course Not proud but always winning The bear is why I kiss you The fear it never dies I've killed so many bad guys I see the darkness in you too
12.
Remember the heart of disaster Recovery from the act Like a shroud I am a sucker For the same reasons you lack Of the year of the flood I haven't Been able to forget About the bodies and the faces Of all our loved ones, dead And the Heart it will remember All the suffering From the act we ape again and again Virtually buffering After the flood you closed your eyes You didn't want to see After the flood but still so dry Cold, sterile sleep

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With their daring new electronica / hip hop collaboration, Jesse Dangerously and Jacob Earl take you into the hearts and minds of the characters who inhabit Margaret Atwood's MaddAddam trilogy.

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released June 22, 2015

Music written, arranged, and produced by Jacob Earl.
Lyrics by Jacob Earl, Jesse Dangerously, Adam Selene, and Adhesiveslipper
Turntables by Bad DJ Budget Cuts

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