ANXIETY

by Jacob Earl

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1.
01:00
My brain can't stop thinking o things I got a lotta anxiety It just keeps rolling around It won't just be quiet for me It's got me in a right mess I just wanna clean it up Instead I keep making it worse Every time I get up I want to be calm I want to be calm I can't catch my breath I can't speak, I can't eat My body is buzzing loud From my head to my feet Hold me now don't let me go I don't wanna be alone I'm scared of everything How did I get so prone? I want to be calm
2.
01:00
I am sad Every time you go away There is an emptiness Sitting in your place It doesn't work It doesn't feel I can't cry on its shoulders They're not even real
3.
01:00
Think back to a time Before I had regrets The memory is so dim I almost forget A basement full of sound Sticky skin and floors Amplified sentiments Innocent no more I can't live in the past You're not ever coming back Constant rumination Never peace or closure Write another song about it Means it's never over A super 8 somewhere Buried in belongings Can't destroy the evidence Of all of my wrongdoings
4.
00:59
Peace Sex Lust Practice your poker face In front of the mirror Dark sunglasses And a cigarette Carrying drugs In your leather jacket You'll share with anyone who asks Truthfully I don't wanna die But the point of it all Seems to pass me by Truthfully I don't wanna die But the point of it all Seems to pass me by You're comical and logical A real conundrum The only thing good to me A genuine smile Heart pitter-patter Stare at my feet I want it to be real It's altogether too much
5.
01:00
Work is not enough Years I been crumblin' Took a coward's path Years I been turning in Kiss me hello, dear Kiss me goodnight Money's not enough Years I been stumblin' All the gains I made I fell back down again Queer is not enough Years I been mumblin' Never coming out Fear o' failing you, my love Kiss me hello, dear Kiss me goodnight
6.
01:00
Pressure, pressure Focus and release In the eyes Holding back the beast At best the rest Delayed another day Tomorrow begins The pain once again Aura, aura Hazy, hazy brain Sorrow, sorrow Hurting from the rain Aura, aura Hazy, hazy brain Sorrow, sorrow Lazy refrain
7.
00:59
I will come back Once in a while I miss you And your smile I will come back Early or late Which day I can't exactly say I will come back Like Jesus in the book I won't be a martyr But I'll help you cook I will come back I promise, just wait Misery loves promises And misery's my fate
8.
01:00
Unh Yeah Kick it There's a crackle somewhere Electric air A heartbeat beating But you were never there I must have died a little I couldn't bear My teeth clenched The sadness doesn't care I lie awake alone Playing my favourite song You were here once I swear And now you are gone I lie awake forever The night drags on I keep your memory alive Like nothing went wrong Like nothing went wrong Like nothing went wrong
9.
01:00
Fallacy grip rain Slipping out the back Soaking from the heavens On a porch in the forest Friends and users Tell me a story Something about you You never told Floating in your memory A flash of you and I Standing in the rain Lost in lust Fancy dance night club Bumping together Going home early And making love I'll share your secret with no one Your gift is not mine to give I'll share your secret with no one Your gift is not mine to give
10.
01:00
I haven't felt this way In a long time We're close to extinction Disappearing For a final time What are you wearing? Special occasion Once in a lifetime What a surprise To see you caring It's a new age All the celebration Let's snuff it out Let's be more daring It's a new age Shut the door on the old Join the the masses Do what you're told

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A conceptual piece, ANXIETY is ten tiny songs about embracing the beauty in neurodivergence.

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released October 29, 2018

Produced, written, recorded, and performed by Jacob Earl.

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Jacob Earl Ottawa, Ontario

Independent DIY queer producer/songwriter/photog.

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