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Drumz And A Baalloonn

by Jacob Earl

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1.
Nightz Alone 05:34
Full moon Drums and a balloon Nights alone in my room Gone too soon When the insomnia hits And I'm alone it's the pits It's a railroad on my brain That'll never wane Keeping me awake all night In hate and fright I hate being alone I mean I fucking hate being alone I hate being alone I hate fucking being alone These endless nights alone When nobody's home I hate being alone I fucking hate being alone I hate being alone I hate being alone I'm joined by my inner voice Nights alone, no choice The worst monologue My mind in a fog Take drugs and dull the chatter Nights alone don't matter I think of you coming home I fucking hate being alone I hate being alone I fucking hate being alone I hate being alone I fucking hate being alone I hate being alone I fucking hate being alone So fucking alone So fucking alone I hate being alone I mean I fucking hate being alone I hate being alone I hate fucking being alone These endless nights alone When nobody's home I hate being alone I fucking hate being alone
2.
Huggz 03:49
Hug me now Hug me later Don't ever let me go Hold me close in your arms Don't let me come to harms Hold me close dear Hold me close in your arms Don't let me come to harms Hold me close right here
3.
Kissez 06:11
Oh I can feel it under your skin C'mon baby just let me in This is a slow jam not a sin C'mon baby just let me in Oh I can feel it under your skin C'mon baby just let me in This is a slow jam not a sin C'mon baby just let me in Oh I can feel it under your skin C'mon baby just let me in This is a slow jam not a sin C'mon baby just let me in Oh I can feel it under your skin C'mon baby just let me in This is a slow jam not a sin C'mon baby just let me in Powder keg and heat You were too full to eat Bursting at the seams With kisses in your dreams Exes and ohs, exes and ohs A little peck on the nose A nibble on the ear Shivers on the pier Stole a little glance You ransacked this place for answers They were always right here You just couldn't face them, my dear Tongue's all tied in knots You're caught up in your thoughts You couldn't face the truth Though you already knew Twenty times a coward Twenty years in a tower Built of brittle lies It's criminal you didn't kiss me goodbye A subtle neck, a warm breath What the heck, a normal death Clenched teeth, speak yr piece You're a hypocritical beast Traces down your back Tells you what I lack How you feel tonight When I hold you oh so tight Shiver from the heat You thought my heart was neat It didn't have the lofty goals Of needing another heart to hold Of needing another heart to hold Kisses, kisses, a billion kisses Dollars to donuts you're gonna miss it It's just lips, it's just a touch I didn't give it meaning, why did it mean so much? Portmanteau you're a kissalo Poor man's choice of a clown and ready to go You changed all your make-up and hair But I'd know that face anywhere Kissez Kissez Kissez Kissez Kissez
4.
Heavy petting On the fourth of July Behind the bleachers Like a trope and a lie Hidden In plain sight Friday night Friday lights Kissing and necking make the old car hot Fogged up windows in the parking lot Heavy petting I'm falling apart This life is art I'm falling apart I got urges Hard to resist I'm a ball of curse words Cuss for bliss Laments and dirges Get me pissed Frustration surges Up from the pit Heavy petting I'm falling apart This life is art I'm falling apart Cup n saucer; fuck you, Chaucer I got handouts for your daughter Everything you didn't want her Taught just to keep you smarter I told her anyway; the shock turned her gay Now she's happier you're outta the way
5.
Tornado 03:38
Waves ashore portamento Passing in the night memento Mori everything is hunky Dory sunken off the coast Crisp anthem, red chrysanthemum Growing roots with love, abandon All the children; childhood's end Here's to death; raise a toast Does a poorly constructed metaphor Tug at your heartstrings like a chord Change will only be minor Relative to the roots you grow Caught up in the eye of the storm The castle will keep our bodies warm You may feel miles high But it's always followed by a low Weather don't care If you're supposed to be there Don't worry about it Tornado Drive the car, tornado chaser Wildest dreams fade faster Than the quiet ones you hasten Beaten down with no regard For the safety of others Storms a warning to lovers Quarrel about who discovers Who thought this would be so hard Does a poorly hastened decision Make you tense with love revision Change will only be loss If you choose to never grow Caught up in the eye of the storm The faith always follows form You may feel the need to pray But it's always for something you already know Weather don't care If you're supposed to be there Don't worry about it Tornado
6.
You were just gone Nothing to say Death and decay Death and decay You simply vanished Gone away Death and decay Death and decay I still get up I still promise Another day Funny how that works I'm keeping honest I just stay I just stay It's just inertia A pendulum swing The other way The other way You stepped aside That gulf was so wide Death and decay Death and decay You were just gone A chasm in my head It made music before Now you're dead Now it's silent Since you left An empty corridor Cuz you're dead You were just gone Nothing to say Death and decay Death and decay You simply vanished Gone away Death and decay Death and decay
7.
Resurrected 02:54
90 BPM in A Major Verse A - A - D - E Chorus C - C - G - G C - C - G - E Brought back to life A whole new chance Fuck it up like last time The last dance I should have said hello In the dark gym I was a shy little fellow The lights were dim Oh my stars I'm old now No regrets allowed I enjoy the cold now I hate the sweat on my brow There's a piece of me still there A wallflower nerd Poorly dyed hair Screaming to be heard Turn back the clocks If happiness is just a pox Turn back the clocks If happiness is just a pox First time resurrected Make the most I won't regret it I won't boast I still don't believe it I have work to do If there was time to leave it I'd still do it too I'm a precious metal You haven't mined yet You deserve a medal But we get what we get You're a lavender petal I haven't inhaled yet Resurrected tea kettle But we get what we get Turn back the clocks If happiness is just a pox Turn back the clocks If happiness is just a pox Nah Nah nah Nah
8.
Ace 03:52
I like to be touched I run my fingers skin to skin It's a feeling not unlike such As when I'm looking in I hold my comfort like a charm I cradle it like a child I can still feel the harm But it's tolerable and mild I've got so many feelings Like I'll burst into space I can't ever heal I'm fine, I'm ace I've got so many feelings Like I'll burst into space I can't ever heal I'm fine, I'm ace A love is like the woods So much life underneath The growth is always good But the roots you always leave Treacherous emotions Always give me away Throw your moods in the ocean You won't be needing them today I've got so many feelings Like I'll burst into space I can't ever heal I'm fine, I'm ace
9.
Aro 05:43
Arrows fly straight And also gay Yr aim is fate You like it that way
10.
It comes on no warning Just floating in the back A restless little stowaway I hadn't expected that I trained myself Not to care And I got what I asked for there I traded joy It was fair I got what I was asking for there I go so long without it It's like, it's like a fix I want to escape it I want to quit Or do I really? It's a mix Because I can't Let the pleasure win I trained myself Not to care And I got what I asked for there I traded joy It was fair I got what I was asking for there Consequences; counterpoints You led with your nose out of joint I tried to be platonic You could say I wrote the rules on it I trained myself Not to care

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When I recorded and released Silly Little Sacrifices, there were 30 songs left over. I took ten of those songs, and made this album. It is about embracing loss.

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released January 31, 2022

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Jacob Earl Mississippi Mills, Ontario

No Gender. Queer Songs.

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