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Get a limited edition chapbook of IF THE DUST WAS YOUR FEELINGS, I GUESS I WAS ON MY OWN! Complete with all lyrics from the album, and original artwork by Jacob Earl.
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about
The feeling of anxiety eating you up inside.
lyrics
I dreamt
That I was a Beach Boy
And we were singing
Bar-Barbara Ann
But I woke up cold
In a silent home
A singer without a band
I'm an ally I swear
I lost all of my hair
Worrying til I puked up blood
I lay on the floor
Waiting for the seizure
Thru years of leisure and love
My therapist says
She shares my values
That I can't even define
My larynx swells
When she says "how are you?"
I always reply, "doing fine"
Bawling til my guts bled
I can't get out of bed
I don't even have an excuse
I swear that I'm not lying
I swear that I'm not crying
At this point I lose my breath
At this point I'm out of my depth
Privilege drenches me
Til I'm hot and sweaty
And never have to face the truth
The lament of a fruit
Who's never been bruised
At least not where it counts
Safe to fight back
Mount a counter-attack
Attack a counter amount
My therapist says
I'm intolerant of uncertainty
I'm certain she's correct
All I can rely upon
I lock up and I siphon
Til there's no certainty left
Bawling til my guts bled
All the fears that I dread
I just can't justify
Halfway adept
Halfway to death
I just can't close my eyes
I swear that I'm not lying
I swear that I'm not crying
At this point I lose my breath
At this point I'm out of my depth
Bawling til my guts bled
All the things that I said
I just want to get by
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