I Disappear In The City

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I get dark fast in the winter
I'm just one day at a time
Just one cold hint of a whisper
A breath on your eyes
You blink to remember
But you drink to forget
It's been years since you've been better
And you know your regrets

Not a chance for some pity
I'm sitting in wait
I disappear in the city
When the hour gets late
I grow better at masking
When I practice the act
I pretend I'm not asking
You and I made a pact

Hold up, hold up
You kept on fighting at least
Inside you're colder, colder
When you slip inside
Slip inside the beast

I get dark fast when I sink
Like a bottomless pit
Like, I can't even think
I disappear just a bit
The seams come apart
Like bad architecture
This city's full of dark art
I drew you this picture

I'm a clever fraud
I hide in plain sight
You would never applaud
But you knew I was right
There's a beauty to fading
Away from the crowds
You were just waiting
For the man I am now

Hold up, hold up
You kept on fighting at least
Inside you're colder, colder
When you slip inside
Slip inside the beast

I disappear in the city
I called it my home
The wet concrete beats me
I hate being alone
I disappear in the crowd
This place will eat you up
If you just came home now
God, it would be enough

I disappear in the city
I faded with age
I crumbled inside when you left
I exit the stage
The spotlight dims
The curtain fell
The city disappeared
This place is Hell

Hold up, hold up
You kept on fighting at least
Inside you're colder, colder
When you slip inside
Slip inside the beast

I disappear in the city
I disappear from your life
I dissolved with sunlight
I disappear in the night
Two fences and a railroad
Are we enemies or friends?
Separate our love, foe
Is this the end?

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from I Disappear In The City, released March 22, 2019

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