The Joy

by Jacob Earl

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A concept piece about happiness and depression, life and death.

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released November 11, 2017

Produced, written, arranged, and recorded by Jacob Earl.

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Jacob Earl Ottawa, Ontario

Independent DIY queer producer/songwriter/photog.

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Track Name: The Joy
You took away
What I didn't even know I had

The words to articulate
Don't even make me mad

Record another take
If this one ain't so great
You only live once
But I can imitate
The joy
The joy

There is a slice
Where the meaning used to be

At least I think
Cuz maybe it fell between

Record another take
If this one ain't so great
You only live once
But I can imitate
The joy
The joy

I have wallowed
A sad excuse for a clown

What's my excuse
When I can't even drown

There is a slice
Where the joy used to be
Maybe it's gone
Maybe it's not in me
Maybe I'm rotten
Maybe I'm forgotten

Record another take
If this one ain't so great
You only live once
But I can imitate

The joy
The joy
Track Name: Technolove
Why do you judge me
Why do you judge me?

This dance floor rocks
Made of earth and mud
It shakes my heart
It shakes my knees
I'm divided by the locks
Like the channel of love
Right to my heart
I've got a heart disease

Why do you judge me
Why do you judge me?

This misfit rose
From Hell's wet fire
Burnt at the heart
Tech no desire
I'm queen on prom night
Opened Pandora's box
Pitch black heart
In the dancehall pyre

Why do you judge me
Why do you judge me?

This technolove
You are perfect make believe
You make my heart
Burst at the seams
A parade of our lives
Down a Boulevard of dreams
You are a perfect
Work of art

Why do you judge me
Why do you judge me?
Why do I judge you
Why do I judge you?

You break me down
Like a fractured beat
Syncopated
A frigid heat

Nature calling
Crush this cold concrete
You are so perfect
I weep

Why do I judge you
Why do I judge you?
Track Name: Instinct
It's what I gotta be like
I feel like
You see why
I can't explain

When the feeling moves me
Removes my
Instinct
This is a game

It's what I gotta be like
A free hike
Sea lights
A mountain range

A billion aeons
Neon
Lean on
A slow landscape

Map my creases
I cease to be
Is this my final form?
In the arms of sleep

It's what I gotta be like
Gripping
Slipping
Truth ripped me apart

Squared me uniform
Cuneiform
Darkness
A dying art

Each choice I make
It breaks me
Cuts me
Farther down

To bone, muscle,
Heart
Hussle hard through
Dirt and sound

Map my creases
I cease to be
Is this my final form?
In the arms of sleep

The morning is a sliver
A shiver
I'm mourning
The disease

It left us so mortal
Hurting
More so
Fragile ease

I could have cut it
Froze it
In the moment
Instinct took charge

It ripped me apart
Less
My heart
My lifeless heart

Map my creases
I cease to be
Is this my final form?
In the arms of sleep

In the end
When you disappeared
As I feared
With no surprise

You were already
Too far
To stare
Into your eyes

My instincts abandoned
Random
Acts
A mystery gift

Cold clinical
Trials
Reviled
That's all we have left

Map my creases
I cease to be
Is this my final form?
In the arms of sleep
Track Name: Underground
Princess
A slip, a twist, a sigh
In the forest
Saying goodbye

Dressed in yellow
Dripping with sweat
Gripping dirt
We haven't yet met

Dirt
We haven't yet met

The tiger, the liar
The worm underground
We all understand now
Why you left town

Celebration
Became a haunted house built
On a sentimental cavern
To hide the price of all that guilt

Lying prone
And full of regret
Gripping hope
We haven't met yet
We haven't yet met

The tiger, the liar
The worm underground
We all understand now
Why you left town

Princess
A slip, a twist, a sigh
In the forest
Saying goodbye

Princess
A slip, a twist, a sigh
In the forest
Saying goodbye

Dressed in yellow
Dripping with sweat
Gripping dirt
We haven't yet met

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